how strange it is to be anything at all!

I miss GAIA online. I wasn't myself - I was an avatar. I had simple shops to buy new outfits from. I had friends who I had never seen the faces of. I was very in-depth with my textual emoji markup language. Like, not just the cute lil faces ^______^ but also my font color choices, and slightly smaller font sizes. Don't get me started on signature banners... Oh man, those were definitely my favorite thing. I also miss naively fangirling over things! Why don't I have an obsession as strong as my obsession with Captain Jack Sparrow anymore?? Maybe I'm just on a different journey because my mind races to Ezra Miller, as he's probably the closest celebrity thing I've seen to sexy in a while (well, I like me some good ol' Brad Pitt, don't get me wrong) But now I almost don't want to feel inferior to anyone or anything -- ooh maybe I don't want to idolize anything anymore. That's one of the ten commandments right? Maybe I'm picking up on some intuitive level that obsessing over distant characters is possibly unhealthy on some level -- but arguably, it keeps your mind in a fantasy place and compared to all the media polluted brains out there, that can't be that bad right? haha

Earlier this year I took a stab at writing role-play fiction. Okay, it was a little raunchier than that. It was kind of fun to see how far I could push a thought of fantasy. What kind of fantasy thoughts intrigue me these days? Hmm... can I still lose myself in the vampire trope? Or am I more interested in a magic welding main character? No clue lol 

I finished my painting the other night! Let me go get a photo of it. 

there isn't much detail...... but I like its style? I dunno, t'was a way to pass the time and i think it turned out pretty neat in the end! maybe i'll have enough of these for a show one day.

the photos up top are from an adventure last night! heheh

i'm gonna go do some mantras now. i can feel the need

ttyl!!