Remember to be here now.
In the past, I always liked keeping a blog because it was the one place where I could truly be honest with myself and understand how I was feeling about the things that were going on on my life.
These days, I feel a bit more fluid. I try not to give too much importance to anyone or anything. Things come, things go. I basically just try to focus on being outdoors in nature, staying in shape, and finding productive ways to pass the time. I know I should be productive today... but a part of me wants to read my book outside if it isn't too cold. Another part of me wants to sit at the computer and do a lot of nothing on the internet while slowly creating a mock up of my next painting. Another part of me wants to take a nice, hot bath but fears I will lose energy once I get out. Another part of me wants to clean the small bits and pieces in my room so I can have a clearer mind. And lastly, another part of me wants to learn a new shuffle dance.
But which part do we listen to?
I went on an hour long hike / walk today. There were fuzzy caterpillars, pincher bugs, and birds gliding close beside me. It was a good workout. I kind of wished my partner in crime was beside me, but I also admired my bravery in taking on such a long journey by myself.
I found so maybe nuanced books on astrology at an estate sale I went to with my mom yesterday! I'm currently reading one about the planet Saturn and it's relation to Satan. Super interesting stuff. There was also a book on Midhavens, Aspects, and Lunar Nodes. It turns out that my past karma is in Cancer while my future karma lies in Capricorn! I'm not entirely sure if I'm saying that right, but those are the signs of my northern and southern nodes.
This is the year that I.....
can you finish that sentence for me?
It feels like an important one, but like I said, I'm hardly placing importance on anything.
Let's see how much of this human experience is in our control and how much is out of our hands.
Til next time, peace!
