So, there is this beautiful song by Deadmaus that I just discovered called "I Remember", and every time I play it, I just imagine playing a large event with Kevin on stage. He's working the electronics and I'm dancing around stage, singing occasionally.. it's.. something I hope to achieve! 

So, to do this, I'll have to sit down at my computer more. Write more songs, at least once a day! What do I like so much about this song? It's down tempo... yet still dance worthy.. 

What else is going on?

Been watching anime with Michael and Julie! We have a discord voice chat going while Michael shares his screen and that's pretty cool.. 

There's been a lot of life around me lately! Especially today it felt like! 

My tarot reading said I was the fool and that new bonds would be forming so that seems in alignment :) I just hope I don't spread myself too thin... it's important I get lattes with Kevin lol

Okay I should really be asleep

Gonna respond to some insta messages

And then try to pass out 

Gnite!!

 alright, some time alone to breathe and take in the moment

i have always wanted to be a force of kindness, sensitivity, and compassion. understanding, empathy, and simply leaving the smallest footprint possible each day. 

life is too short for any kind of tension and unneeded stress..

anyway, it feels good to be a spiritual being. to reflect and feel the souls of others pass through reminding us how we're all connected! it's a beautiful thing. 

no one is an enemy. i don't know why i'm writing this, but maybe it's a reminder for people out there. people on the left, people on the right, people who think they're right in a gray world where there might be more out there than certainty. 

anyway, let's talk about what's going on right now in my life.

so, for the past 6 days, I have been working! I woke up at 4:30AM for 5 out of 6 of those days, and one could easily say that the day of my later shift was the busiest one yet. 

i described it as tumbling through a washing machine because i honestly couldn't tell you if i have been sleeping too much or too little based on all the weird naps i had been taking. according to sean, it'll even out eventually, but as of right now, it feels like the world's weirdest schedule lol. but it has been nice getting off work at 11am! 

anyway, on to the next thing! so, i live in the valley. i've visited most establishments in this city numerous times, to the point that I could tell you what aisle to find scotch tape on. 

so what does this mean? I have this constant desire to find somewhere new. and since that doesn't exist most times, i settle for a new "sales section". and well, we all know that's not quite the same. 

does a new video game suffice? it's a very sedentary activity. i know i like being in motion... 

speaking of which! my bike pump came in the mail! i can ride my bike again now! 

i should probably research some beautiful bike trails and report my findings back here! maybe that will motivate me to do it! 

Cogswell Dam

okay, google says to try out this place

im bored of bloggin

BYE!

 

today was so beautiful

the nap I took in kevin's arms

I know that sounds cheesy

but it was so unbelievably peaceful

and we saw a view of the city 

after a great hiiike

that happens to be right by where I live!

we were afraid it was private property

we're still not fully sure,

but the place was empty

and showed footprints of other people 

and it was just too beautiful to 

not visit again :)

why was that nap so peaceful?

I cooked fried rice today!

I scarfed down a bowl for myself

and then made another when kevin came over 

Julie started a group chat with me and Michael! how cool!! we're going to play Mario kart online hehe

my mom brought over half a burrito

I ate it. fell asleep. and now I'm awake here at 2:30am

I'm trying to understand this 5:30am work schedule 

It's quite new to me 

Like, I'm off work by 11am. E l e v e n  AM. is that registering? I have the entire day or as much of the day before I get sleepy ahead of me! 

I was SO sensitive yesterday. I don't want to think about it too much but they took the plastic barrier down and I think I felt that was happening before it happened. I guess I'm excited about it! No more yelling, right? just need these masks to go away and we're groovy! 

I made lemon slushiesss

no sugar at all, just water

Kevin ate the whole thing! I guess he liked it ^_^ 

okay gonna browse Reddit for a bit

Oh and a melody came to me last night

I have to record it soonnn

(And finish editing the Persian cooking thing!)

I don't want to go alone - The Drums

push pull dont let them >> only being vague because im running late 4 work, but kali, your storm wont take this from me ❤