That’s the dream, isn’t it?

 So, I did 100 jumping jacks tonight. It might not be such a big deal to most, but I hardly ever exercise, so this is a giant step in a right direction for me.

One of the greatest areas I feel I lack discipline in is my diet. I came to a realization today about it though. I’ve never taken the time to really set out and clarify what it is that I should be eating. I’ve simply been scrutinizing myself almost every day about how I am eating the wrong things. So let me pause for a second and ask myself, what does a day (or week) of eating the right thing look like? I think if I make it as clear as, for lunch you shall eat an avocado toast and not an ounce more, then I could actually follow through clearly knowing what are the boundaries and the rules. But wow, I over ate today so even THINKING about food right now is making me feel awful. And why did I overeat? Well, when there’s leftover steak nachos with guacamole unclaimed on a table...... and no strict rules set in line...... I’m going to eat it. But no more! I want to have more discipline in this area of my life!

For breakfast, I’ll have an oat milk latte. If I am very hungry, I can have eggs and toast but if I remember correctly from when I was a child, I was rarely ever a c t u a l l y hungry in the mornings. The problem is the fear that I won’t have a chance to eat because I’ll be working on an empty stomach. I’ve yet to test out my capacity to not eat. I definitely need energy to work and so on work days, I shall try to have my breakfast. 

For lunches, I’d like to have something like an avocado kale salad, with lentil soup. Or pan friend butternut squash, with a Caesar salad and some hummus... I don’t know, but I wish so badly I could aim to eat vegan for at least 4 if not 5 days a week. How can I simplify this thought? How about this: I only eat meat on the weekends. There. Done. 

I started working on lyrics for my latest song. I want to be able to disassociate from my lyrics as much as possible. It’s hard for me to write this way. I still need to lay out this song’s structure.

I finally organized my hallway closet! I didn’t think I would ever get around to doing it. It’s still not as presentable as I’d like it to be, but I’m starting to fall into housewife territory if I get anymore Pier One Imports, so maybe it’s actually better this way.

I prepped a wooden panel last night before I made that last painting. I want to paint something similar except on a larger scale. 

What else? My mom started watching a new show. It’s called Rectify and I’m lowkey obsessed. Aden Young is quite the handsome actor, and I can tell from this role, he has a beautiful mind.

That’s the dream, isn’t it? To have such a clearheaded and spiritually sound mind.