i'm an axolotyl, you're an axolotyl, we are axolotyls and we like to waddle waddle!

feelings are such fleeting things, or maybe, it’s better to say that thoughts are fleeting. there has to be a divide between thoughts of my choice, and evil external forces. you hold no power over me and anything that is forced will crumble anyway! <3

back to my thoughts!

i’ve been on such a good health track lately! (well, not as of most recent lately lol which is why i am here now writing this blogpost so i can get myself back in the mindset of being on a good track)
i’m so grateful to be surrounded for the most part by people who are healthy. by people who are conscious of the foods they put into their body and of how much sunlight they absorb and how often they go on hikes and walks

i lost my good habits over the weekend. it’s okay because i turned thirty and that’s a big deal and it was the right time to be a bit more indulgent than usual, but now i am back to the normal routine and i want to get my thoughts in order.

when i wake up in the morning, i’d like to still attempt to try to reach 100 sit-ups. i can do 50 now! that is a big feat from the absolute limit of 33 i had before.

i think i should start with some mild warm ups and stretches. from there, i should do 30 jumping jacks. from there, i will do the 50 sit-ups (reserving 100 for some showy day where i do it for the sake of doing it rather than putting it into the morning routine) and I also really enjoying doing scissor sit up things! i don’t know what they’re called. you lay flat on your back and alternate raising your left and your right leg as they are straightened out.

i’m working on a painting right now, and i have this fear that i’ll never make anything i like this much again! but that’s just a fear.. it appeared one day so i’m sure another one will appear another day too.

i don’t want to be so hard on myself when it comes to visual arts. but maybe i should be more hard on myself when it comes to my trashy synth pop idea! which reminds me i have a song i’m working on riiiight nowww…

kevin and i made a fire in my backyard! i cooked us some potatoes on it and dayummm they were gooood.

recipe: wrap a raw potato in foil, and slice into thin circles almost entirely while leaving it connected. add olive oil, salt, smoked paprika, pepper, and dry onion flakes. heat up for ‘bout an hour. enjoy!

okay what else?

i think that’s it for now! the goal is to continue focusing on staying fit, eating healthy, writing trashy synth pop, and maybe more backyard camping with my lover if he’s down hehe