hiding in my room, crawling next to me they're calling you

you guysss, i'm losin it!
if i told you the obscure thoughts ive had as of recent.... well first off, you'd probably be disinterested lol but secondly you'd probably be confused / weirded out / and might even laugh lol
(( also disclaimer because words are such evil monsters, 'i'm losin it' in my world is so far from the stereotypical things that are popping into your mind, so don't ' w o r r y ' because my insanity is all in good fun ))


okay first point of madness : a couple of years ago, i bought a print of a painting from a good friend of mine and it's of a mystical looking beast animal thing... last week, as i was fornicating with my lover, i noticed he took a stance that looked SO COOL, but also very beastlike. it's been an entire week and i just realized right now that I subconsciously thought he looked like the beast from the painting! *important* you are witnesses my first thoughts into the realm of becoming a furry hahaha no just kidding, but I have been fantasizing lately about a new persona with me and my lover! i'm wearing a baby pink wig and cat ears and he has dark black hair and blue/black fox ears (also a tank top, and spiky studded necklace!) we play trashy synth pop and sit back to back looking broody and moody and whatnot. also! just googled the word 'broody'... i always thought it just meant like gloomy, but apparently it also means wanting to have babies like hens laying eggs but oh god no that's not the one I was trying to say!!!! lowkey, there's an off chance that i might just want to live in my adolescent fantasy world forever and i fear society would want to judge me for that (well, maybe not society, but at least my mom lol)

ANYWAY! i've started not one, not two, but THREE trashy synth pop songs!! YAAY!
now to sit down, focus, and finish them

also, the lyrics are quite nonsensical but in a thoughtless way so i might have to rethink some of those...
with golden phrases such as

"electric bicycle,
riding down the yellow brick road
we had a hard time
'cause no one showed us the way
toxic forums sent us soarin
hiding in our text emojis
three out of fives alright
when you're floating away
see you later alligator
'cause you know i might have
made a mistake
mistake
mistake
mistake
mistake
take
take
take
ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta"

at least constellation love has it goin
"constellation love
you must be something sent from above
did i get here too late?
i thought i heard you once
but i never saw your face
i turn my head
and everything else was gone
the words exchanged
brought on by constellation love"

and the newest one which probably needs the most work
so far says
"hiding in my room
crawling next to me
they're calling you
did you see the moon
falling underneath
i thought of you
never wanna haunt me
never wanna hurt you
i never want to hurt you
never run away and find a way
to make a stand"

like, these words are placeholders with the right amount of syllables. that's all they are right now...... hopefully the lyrics will come to me later today. i'll work on them

this blog has some really cool gifs. couldn't figure out how to post the gif so here is a still. link to blog: https://peco-pech.tumblr.com/